At the end of May, I was at a low point of my life. I moved back home and all the plans I had for my life disappeared in the matter of a few weeks. I honestly found myself asking God, “What the heck am I suppose to do now? What is your plan for my life?” I felt so frustrated and confused because this is not what I pictured my life would be like at this moment in time. I knew I had to find a full time job so I spent months applying to every job I could. Ideally, I was looking for a job outside of my home state of Pennsylvania. I just had this strong feeling that I was not going to get what I was looking for in life by staying here in my hometown.
I continued with my photography business and was lucky to have been able to shoot some amazing sessions and events this summer but I know that my business is not at the level yet to be a full time job for me. I continued to apply for jobs in what seemed to be about every state within the U.S. One of the first jobs I heard back from was ironically from a therapeutic boarding school in Montana. Now, I say this is ironic because for the past three years I dreamed that Montana would be the state where I settled down in for while. The irony of this made me laugh and thank God for answering a pray of mine even after I had lost all hope. It really made me realize that God had some crazy plan in the works for me.
I had three phone interviews and a visit to see the school. All of which went super well. After seeing the school and town, and meeting the people there, I had this overwhelming sense that I was meant to be there. I finally heard the news on Thursday that I received the position of Team Leader at the school.
The role of Team Leader relates closely to a parenting role. I will be advising and mentoring at risk teens and aiding in their recovery of addictive tenancies. I will also be in charge of creating and implementing safe and enriching activities to all Montana Academy students. I’ll be required to lead and participate in backpacking, hiking, biking, skiing as well as other sports related activities. I will also help lead a photography club as well.
As many of you know, my passion for working with youth is just as strong as my passion for writing and photography, so I am extremely excited for this opportunity. As excited as I am for this new adventure, I still have quite a bit of anxiety knowing I am actually having this dream turn into reality.
In all honestly, this is the scariest thing I have ever done. I am moving 2,037 miles away from home to a place where I do not know anyone. I have no friends and no family out there. I will be living completely on my own for the first time in my life. No matter what problems I may encounter, the only person I will have to depend on is myself, which is scary and exhilarating all at the same time. For the past three years, every decision I made was for someone else’s best interest, and for the first time I am able to make decisions solely for myself. I am moving to Montana for myself. I took this job because I want this job. I feel like I’ve been stuck in a rut and haven’t been living life to the fullest. I know I have to push myself to do something that will be out of my comfort zone. I need to prove to myself that I can do something for myself and by myself. I need to be able to be on my own and make my own decisions without letting others influence me.
Moving to Montana and being on my own is exactly what I need right now and God has provided for me so that I can make this adventure happen. Thank you all who have prayed for me and given references and sent positive thoughts and vibes my way. I am forever thankful for it. I ask that you continue to keep me in your prayers as I make this transition in my life.
****For those of you who have booked me already for sessions in the future, I will still be able to fly home and do those sessions. For those looking to book me for weddings and portraits sessions in the future, I will still be available for that as well. I will be coming home to visit and am more than willing to work out dates. Please still reach out to me. The sooner you contact me, the more likely I will be able to travel home and make a session possible.